Saturday, August 23, 2008

It

well, guys, i did It! the biggest, hardest, grandest, most love-filled Thing i've ever done, and may ever do. i was in the middle of It on tuesday, (sorry - for those of you who don't know the actual story, i'm not going to go into It here. you'll have to use your imagination...), when i felt again - really tangibly felt - how incredibly worthwhile all the work has been. i felt such peace and contentment in the midst of what many would consider to be the hardest part...a real and settled joy that flooded me. all the feelings that have been elusive for the last couple of months, (which is why none of us should base our choices entirely on our feelings, especially in the heat of the moment...they are fleeting!), almost bowled me over. they aren't what made It worthwhile, they just reminded me that it had been one of the best and most right choices i've made in my whole life. so even now, in the winding down and getting back to "normal" (whatever that is!?), my heart is happy - so happy. and my word to you, dear reader, is live big... say yes to impossible things...love out loud... i hope you find your own "It".

6 comments:

Annie said...

Big love! BIG BOLD unconditional love. That's what IT is all about :0)

Curtis Mulder said...

"Love is the test ... This love [Jesus' love] is not a dreamy sentimental, gushy thing. It is radical love, exigent, searing, terrifying."
If love is the test, you pass.

Liam (and his mom) said...

You are officially the knew "It" girl. Well done, dear friend, well done.

Heather said...

cheers to saying "yes".

Jennifer said...

WAY TO GO RACHEL! You truly did an amazing thing and demonstrated a kind of love that we don't see much of today. Bravo!

Jennifer said...

WAY TO GO RACHEL! You truly did an amazing thing and demonstrated a kind of love that we don't see much of today. Bravo!