Monday, October 13, 2008

fresh starts

so.... fresh starts.

as i mentioned, i started going to the gym. i have my goals, and a plan to reach them - but it's going to require some intentional energy and time!

it occurs to me that i have been a lot more intentional about creating a plan to get into my favorite jeans than i have been about creating a plan to get my heart into a good place - and when i'm thinking straight i know that my heart is what matters, not my pant size. i need to have intentional energy and time to make my inner life as beautiful as i'd like my outer life to be. and so i have a goal:

"(You) will be like a shelter from the wind
and a refuge from the storm,
like streams of water in the desert
and the shadow of a great rock in a thirsty land." (isaiah 32:2)

that is who i want to be... for curtis, for The Girls, for my friends and peeps... and with a little grace i might just get there...

5 comments:

Liam (and his mom) said...

I like this post, Rae. I need to do this too.

Marilyn said...

very nice... but where is the picture of The Girls!~!!

Mark said...

You have done a lot of carrying the burden for others in the past year (speaking as a recipient of said carrying). I think the path to inner contentment should (could?) focus on just being yourself, and not worrying about facing down the storm for others.

Turns out that "yourself" is good people, and if yourself is strong and vibrant, the storm won't have a chance against those close to you.

Basically suggesting that your natural leadership will do the job more happily and effectively than marshaling your resolve ever could...

Of course, I am really, really tired. So that might all be gibberish....

Susan said...

As the saltiest, shinest, sheep I know... your beauty shines from within already girl!

Anonymous said...

Rae I think that you are absolutely gorgeous so please don't worry about fitting into the right jeans... I know you hang out with us girls at church, but to me when I look at you I see inner beauty from the heart:) you are a wonderful person and you care a lot about us girls. I think you are a caring kind of person.

love you and have a safe trip to the retreat.

Diana