i sang this afternoon at a memorial service for a 16 month old baby boy... it was unspeakably sad. i can't begin to imagine how a parent says goodbye to a child. the last song was sung through my tears, though i tried very hard to hold them in. my heart breaks for that mom, and the desperation she must feel to hold her son again, to smell him, smile at him, feel his velvet skin... absolutely breaks. and it makes me so thankful for my girls, even when they are fighting with each other, or creating chaos and mess, or just generally making me crazy - they are still one of God's greatest gifts to me. i have written and deleted several paragraphs here... i think i will let it be what it is. i can't give words to the feelings, and it would do them a disservice to try. thanks for letting me try to express it here...however modestly i was able to.